Let’s see if I can finish a blog post.

Lately, every time I sit down to write, nothing comes out. I pull up one of my drafts, and my cursor sits there, blinking at me, mocking me. And after a few minutes I close my laptop, and try to shake off the feeling of failure. It’s not that I don’t have anything to say — or maybe it is. I have a lot of drafts floating around, about many different topics, but none of them are inspiring me the way they used to.

My words feel lost.

But besides that… Life is really, really great. The kids, although we’re thick in the middle of toddler-hood, bring so much sunshine and laughter into our lives, and Kyle and I have been making date night a priority the last 3 months, which has been much needed and so much fun. I’ve been reading a lot, connecting with a bunch of friends, and being productive(ish) in my homemaking duties. There are always things to work on, of course, but mostly, we’re in a pretty good spot right now.

I turned 28 on Monday and am just a little bit blown away by it. As I think back to 10 years ago, turning 18 and starting college, the next 4 years of school loomed big in front of me. What experiences would I have? What friends would I make? Where would my life go from here? And now I’m through those 4 years plus some, and I just can’t believe it. Here I am, with a college degree, several full-time jobs, a 7 year marriage, 2 kids, and a mortgage under my belt, and I am living real life. I am living my dream. It is real. And I am in awe and feel so incredibly blessed by the way my Father in Heaven has seen fit to orchestrate my life.

I’m hoping that my words come back soon. That I can sit here and type out some good, inspired content, that I can continue to connect and grow with all of you. I’m hoping for some inspiration and direction. I love writing, I love words, I love blogging. I love this hobby of mine more than most any other hobbies I’ve ever had. And so I’m going to keep writing, keep trying, because this space is mine, these words are mine, and they are worth the effort.